Patricia’s Pastimes

I am now working as an aide in an inclusion pre-k classroom at Bethune Elementary.  I took it because it is a long term sub position that will probably last until May.  After my interview at Pirtle and the decision had been made that it was not me, the principal called me to let me know how tough the decision was and told me three times that she would have openings in Feb/March and please get my application to her ASAP when those openings first appear on Belton’s website.  She thought I would make an excellent first grade teacher but needed someone with more special ed background. Now that I am in this inclusion classroom, I understand more.  It has only been two days but I am really beginning to love being with these kiddos.  And someday will have a paycheck!  Our road to financial recovery has begun…….just in time for our new baby which will be here way before February 17th.  Maybe this week!

I had my interview with Pirtle yesterday. I immediately replayed it over and over on the way home, criticizing everything I said and did not say. Started sounding like Homer Simpson (not related to Jessica Simpson or maybe he is). “Why did I say that? DOHH! And why did I forget to say this? DOHH!” And it went on and on until I found myself at Target. I walked the aisles talking to one of my best friends, with this knot in my stomach and wanting to cry. Don’t know if it was the let down from the nerves now that the interview was over or if I really did bad. And then hello Satan. And what if I got the job. Can I be a successful teacher? Maybe I should get an office job. I stayed up until after three this morning because I was so keyed up that I could not lay down. I almost woke up Lonnie to take me to the ER because my heart was racing so fast I thought it would explode. Part of this panic attack could have been due to the fact that I ate dark chocolate covered almonds and washed it down with a diet coke. Can you say Caffeine Overload?

I thought that today would be the day I hear about a job. School is back in session today at the schools I am interested in. I do have an interview set for tomorrow at an elementary school as a permanent sub. Yuck. The principal asked me if I was interested in an aide position. Double Yuck. I informed her that I have my degree now and I really want to teach. She brought me back to reality by saying at least you would have your foot in the door. But I really don’t want Temple schools. We are looking for our 5th superintendent in 4 years. Does that tell you something? But a job right now is a job.

Amanda (my d-i-l) got me hooked on this so I could keep up with the comings and goings of Jackson so I decided to make my own blog.  This has been the looooooongest holiday of my entire life.  I know that next year I will be enjoying this time off but now I am going stir crazy.  I have applied for teaching positions in Temple, Belton, and Killeen and two parent liaison positions in Killeen.  Problem is – the loooooooooooong holiday.  So everyone should be back tomorrow and hopefully the job offers will be coming in.  I have my heart set on 1st grade teaching job in Belton. So say a prayer for me and say a bigger one for the little ones whose life’s I will be changing forever.